So Far Gone

I don’t know what happened to LeBron James. I wrote a couple weeks ago that if LeBron were to leave Cleveland he would be hated by an entire city and maybe LeBron doesn’t have the heart to do that to his hometown. But if LeBron chooses a team besides Cleveland, on his hour-long special that will be broadcast on ESPN tonight, then I was 100 percent wrong about the Akron Hammer.

I’ve been a LeBron supporter since his first game in a Cavaliers jersey, when he almost recorded a triple-double against the Sacremento Kings, though in a losing effort. LeBron was my Michael Jordan. I saw LeBron do things that I had never witnessed on a basketball court ever. I would defend LeBron to the death, but I don’t think I can do that anymore. Not after this offseason.

I don’t think LeBron is the blame for all the hoopla and buffoonery caused by his free-agency, but he has brought it upon himself. I used to wonder how people could hate LeBron, and in the beginning it was hard to. He lived up to all the hype and then some, but now in the past two summers LeBron’s approval has dropped significantly. From the handshake fiasco to the egotistical shirts to the rumored free-agency tour – that was either cancelled or false to begin with – to the hour-long special airing on ESPN tonight.

Unequivocally, I don’t think he should have this TV special. I don’t care that the money is going to the Boys and Girls Club of America. The only way this special could help his reputation is if he re-signed with the Cavs. Then, for the rest of the duration of the special, he basically royally kissed Cleveland’s ass.

For the past couple of days, I’ve been contemplating how I would feel about this moment. Being a die-hard LeBron fan, I wondered if I could remain that after this moment. Can I forgive LeBron for all of the foolishness caused by this nonsense? I don’t know. I want to. I just can’t imagine living in a world where I’m not a LeBron James fan. And if I’m not a LeBron James fan, am I still a fan of the NBA? I’m in a dark place, as far as fandom goes.

One thing I will say is that LeBron no longer holds the undying affection he received from the media in years past – except for Skip Bayless, who has always been a LeBron-detractor.

Whatever the case may be, I truly wonder if LeBron is aware of the ramifications of his ultimate decision. And only time will tell if that is true.

I do believe that if LeBron were to sign a six-year contract to stay with Cleveland, that he would be able to win a championship, but it would probably be only one.

The Fate of a City

I've been a fan of LeBron James since he first came into the league and posted 25 points, 9 assists and 6 rebounds on the Sacremento Kings -- or Queens if you asked Shaq -- in his first NBA game. As LeBron's game improved, my love for the game of basketball and the NBA became more present as well.

The early exit of the Cleveland Cavaliers, LeBron's team, in this year's playoffs came as a shock to me. This was the year he would win it. I just knew it for certain. But that's when I realized that nothing is ever a sure thing. As the cliche goes, "That's why you play the game."

With the Cavs at home, another part of the LeBron era has begun and that is "Where's LeBron going?"

If you aren't a sports fan, than you may not know that the two-time NBA MVP is a free-agent this summer and has the chance to play anywhere he pleases. This isn't usually such a big deal. Superstars in any sport, whether it's the NBA or the NFL, have the chance to explore new territories each year. But what makes this year different is that 5 of the top 25 NBA players, two of them being definite future hall-of-famers, have that chance.

In all the years that I've watched the NBA, this has had to be the strangest and most hyped off-season of all time. Whatever happens this summer has the potential to change the NBA for the next decade and the biggest bearer of that weight is undoubtedly LeBron.

What makes LeBron situation so special is that he has essentially played for his hometown team for his seven-year career. LeBron, who is an Akron native, was drafted by the Cavs as the No. 1 pick in the 2003 NBA Draft. Cleveland, which is only approximately 50 minutes from Akron, took LeBron as their native son.

With seven years passing and no titles to show for it, the Cavs and LeBron relationship is currently up in the air and without being on the point of hyperbole; everyone is wants to know where LeBron is headed. My 73-year-old nana even has an opinion on what LeBron's next move will be.

"I hope he stay (in Cleveland)," she said in her deep, southern accent, a couple of weeks ago.

While I will remain a LeBron fan regardless of his decision, I think that it has been overlooked by the media and regular folk who love the game of basketball, about the pressure LeBron and the city of Cleveland is experiencing right now. Yes, it's widely known that Cleveland sports haven't brought home a title in several decades, but LeBron was and is the only hope of Cleveland gaining any title hopes. Both the Browns and the Indians aren't near having teams with title hopes, and since the Cavs supporting cast are pretty much a bunch of castoffs, players way past their prime -- I'm looking at you Shaq -- and role player, LeBron is the Cavs.

Ask any regular NBA fan and they'll say something that will resemble this, "LeBron is a beast, but the rest of the Cavs are trash." Even with this year's team, which was loaded compared to some of the other teams LeBron led to playoffs, it was still LeBron, a nerdy coach and a bunch of other guys. Guys who couldn't step up when necessary and a coach who continually lacked creativity on offense.

Instead of looking at where LeBron might go -- I think his best chance of winning a ring or multiple, is by going to Chicago with Derrick Rose and Joakim Noah -- I believe that the amount of pressure LeBron has had to face these past two years should be properly analyzed.

Yes, he brought some of it on himself. If he would've committed to Cleveland I think some of this would've been preventable, but LeBron is only 25 and who wants to be tied down at 25. So, it's understandable if the man wants to keep his options open.

When LeBron came to Cleveland, they were beyond terrible. I remember the Ricky Davis/Darius Miles days. Damn, were those rough, but LeBron shined regardless. He became Cleveland basketball. And if LeBron leaves, that's Cleveland basketball as we know it. If you watched this year's playoffs and last year's, you couldn't help but notice how quick the crowd would get uptight if these weren't going the Cavs way. If the Cavs were down by four going with 2:50 seconds left in the fourth quarter, the crowd was as silent as a mime. Forget a knife; you could cut the tension with a bare hand. At any moment it looked like the Quicken Loans Arena could spontaneously combust and if I could feel, I can't imagine how it weighed on the players. Especially with this season being possibly the last time LeBron would wear a Cavs jersey.

No one man should have all that power.

And I think that's what is lost in this. We dehumanize these athletes and forget that they're human beings who feel pressure just like we feel it. The pressure of not just any city, but your home city, the pressure of all the people counting on you and the pressure of people wanting you to fail just so you can, maybe, play for their city.

I don't think that even LeBron's 6" 9' frame could handle all of that. And he shouldn't have to.

So, come July 1st, I'll be waiting patiently to see where LeBron lands, and hopefully he'll make the decision with his head and his heart.